| SURVEYS ARE AWESOME |
[Jun. 22nd, 2005|02:06 pm] |
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| |  coolllddddd | ] |
| [ | music |
| | elkland APART | ] |
silly lj, ive forgotten about you. and i have xanga, which more of my friends read. and i dont really post in online journals anymore, but whatevs.
xo!
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
karen
karebear
kk, although only one person calls me that
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
sometimes the dark. honestly.
being blind
death
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
cell
water
shower
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
light blue capri pants
an adorable pink bra
flip flops with sand in them
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
mates of state
tori
soul coughing
dplan
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
right now....
elkland apart
cat power he war (that's a constant)
iron and wine the trapeze swinger
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
trust
honesty
awesome fun/hilarity/respect
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
leave work
sleep
turn this song up really loud and dance around! instead i have to listen to it quietly. blah.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
professor
something in music business
professional student
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
london (to see friends)
nyc (to see friends)
austria (to see katie)
THREE NAMES YOU MIGHT GIVE YOUR KIDS:
kyan (and not just cause of queer eye)
fitz
hmm...havent thought abotu this in FOREVer....a girls name....um.....i used to know....
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:
i talk like its my job (and really fast)
i am gossipy
im way social. blah. i dont know. this question bothers the womens studies major in me
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT A STEREOTYPICAL GIRL/GUY:
ugh, these things are social constructions |
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| tori has gone downhill |
[Jan. 26th, 2005|07:10 pm] |
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| |  sore | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stars- what the snowman learned about love | ] |
this song blows, but it;s tori, so it's going here. listen up.
http://www2.fanscape.com/toriamos/bee/audio/sleep.asx
i suppose if i put that here, i should say something. i'm back at school, my last semester, and im exhausted already. i need the weekend to perk back up i think. my first day of riding a horse in 6 years was today, adn i remembered everything except how much it HURTS! ooowwwww i can barely move! it's a nice feeling, but it fucking hurts! OW!
so a friend and i are going to ride this weekend together so i can get some practice in before my next class on monday. i felt awful not being able to trot as long as my instructor told me to (my legs seriously gave up). but i was proud for remembering how to groom, tack up, mount, trot and post, get in jumping position, and do some basic dressage. not bad for almost 7 years of nothing! yay!
the snow is falling down like silent rain and i have a date at a friends house so im gone. xxoo. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 3rd, 2004|01:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | patty's 40s torch songs cd she's playing in the office | ] |
FIRSTS*
First name: karen
First nick name: Karebear
First school: pre school, dont rememeber that. something Oak elementary school
First word(s) spoken: they claim chocolate, i just dont know
First CD purchased: nine inch nails, the downward spiral. fucking great album
First job: countergirl at Great Harvest Bread Company! god that was fun.
First time on TV: i dont think i've been on tv...
First time in the newspaper: i was in the saratogian a couple years ago because the photographer loved my pink hair and red coat, and will be in the paper later today in the cover story on stress and time management
First screen name: kesmyth
First pet: a hamster named marshmallow. for real.
First piercing/tattoo: ears when i was 8ish and again when i was 9 or 10 (as they closed up) and a tattoo last march of texas on my left wrist
First credit card: Visa...and was it fun. and it got me in a lot of trouble
First enemy: my best friends were my first enemies, i think. yeah. i think i grew out of that
First big trip: lots when i was little, hawaii in 6th grade, belize in 9th, europe in 9th too, and europe again in 11th
First concert: a million in church, a HUGE one for 4th adn 5th grade in school, and a huge church one in 5th grade...cause i was in all the special choirs. and i have to say, i miss singing choral music SO MUCH
First musician you remember hearing in your house: beach boys and the i heard it through the grapevine song
First house you lived in: a house on white oak drive
First room color: white with a border of pretty flowers
First time drunk: i think it was senior year in high school, i started drinking rum all by myself cause i had a bad day, ended up getting wasted with lindsay, and when glen got home he helped me throw up in the bathroom and put me to bed.
First time high: when i was coming down from my first ecstasy tab, summer before senior year in high school
First grade teacher: Mrs Williams.
First time on a roller coaster: I FUCKING HATE ROLLER COASTERS. HATE HATE HATE
*LASTS*
Last car ride: driving to school this morning at noon, and i got the BEST PARKING SPOT EVER
Last good cry: hmm...good cry? maybe over thanksgiving
Last magazine you read: jane! and im in the middle of real simple.
Last library book checked out: something about mormons and polygamy, as well as Unveiling Kate Chopin by Emily TOth.
Last movie seen: ice age with my parents
Last TV show watched: i saw part of the OC for the first time, but it was lame, and i enjoyed the Charlotte Church christmas special much more-- shes GORGEOUS
Last card game played: texas hold em! super fun
Last cuss word said: fuck or shit
Last words spoken: the capital of maryland? baltimore? no no, its anapolis (mikey is doing a crossword)
Last kiss: real one? um...my 21st birthday, i think
Last hug: earlier today
Last sleep: slept last night, 2 am to 11 30
Last food consumed: cheese ritz crackers
Last phone call received: katie called last night to tell me she wasnt coming home
Last phone call made: i called ellen last night to tell her i was there to pick her up
Last cigarette: ugh, like maybe over the summer, if i was WAY drunk
last time drunk: a couple weeks ago
Last time showered: yesterday at 10 am
Last shoes worn: im wearing my blue saconys
Last shirt worn: now: navy collared shirt that has holes in it, if my mother could see me now
Last pants worn: now: jeans
Last CD played: soul coughing el oso
Last CD bought: wow...not for a long time. mates of state? charlie brown christmas for my mom?
Last item bought: i bought dennys last night
Last annoyance: working on this stupid survey at work when i have MORE HOMEWORK THAN ANYONE ELSE IN THIS SCHOOL SO I DONT HAVE TIME FOR YOUR STUPID SURVEY but i will make time as i get paid when i work on it.
Last amusement: my parking spot made me happy. i was amused at a website my friend sent me this morning, and i was tickled pink by the snow. too bad it didnt stick. OH and i cant wait to have a dinner date with Dana tonight at the Wine Bar! yay!
Last disappointment: snow not sticking. :(
Last soda drank: dr pepper somewhere in recent past
Last thing written on paper: "how much time does arranging for this accomadation take you?"
Last key used: car keys and computer keys
Last IM: making dinner plans with Dana, talking to my older sister about europe
Last ice cream eaten: um....shit i cant remember.
Last person spoke to before sleep: katie |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|04:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the sound of the lights buzzing | ] |
i was just reading ashley's journal and thought it would be fun to update. although i have literally 3 minutes left at work and until my meeting with my thesis advisor, that's cool, it'll be quick. home was fun, wish i couldve spent more time hanging out and shopping (honestly, that's all i really wanted to do) but everyone was SO busy working, etc (damn you kids that have jobs! ummm....jk, cause you lend me money. thanks) so i spent a lot of time being stressed i wasnt doing work but refusing to do it. dumb eh? yeah, well. thats ok. i had a lot of fun with my pollywog and i STILL HAVENT MET MATT and that is just uncool. or n.c., not cool, as mikey would say. ive already had some stressful shit happen since i've been back (keep in mind i've barely been back 24 hours and was asleep for 6 of them) so that's not too fun, but honestly i'm trying to just not care too much and only care about what i'm doing, which is a lot of work. and i'm excited, my thesis is shaping up nicely and i'm way proud of it. wont be as proud of my other thesis i have 2 weeks to write (and research, need to start that) since it will be so half assed but i dont care. i've almost graduated and next semester will be fun (horse back riding, ceramics, the 1960s!). someone in the office next to me just knocked over something and it made this huge cartoon crash, i hope they cant hear me laughing. okay....4 32, i am supposed to be at my meeting, but cant leave until someone shows back up again. grrrrr.
hmm...other highlights....christmas break will be rad, i have a job that pays a goodly amount (and will fund my spring break trip to prague, vienna, and budapest-- weeee!) and will have much more time to play with friends and shop like i wanted to. i plan to travel around texas a bit also, and have a good time.
yay. there shall be much rejoicing.
ok, that's the selected info for you, livejournal. now i may go put something for real in my xanga....or myspace blog, or friendster (jk, who uses friendster anymore?)...all these digital diaries that i dont really use. wild.
xxoo. |
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| so i pull my collar up and face the cold...on my own |
[Oct. 17th, 2004|05:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | smashing pumpkins- 33 | ] |
the change in seasons always makes me nostalgic and sad. ive always hated change, although without it everything is stangnant, horrible and never good. the leaves are changing here; i watch them fall from trees as i sit at my desk and look at the playground of the elementary school across the street, i pull them off my windshield before i drive to school, i crunch them under my feet on my way to class. the leaves dont change like this at home-- fall is cold, long sunny days, warm house, fountains on the pool in the morning when mom opens the french doors because it's finally getting colder like she loves and as she remembers from living in new york. now i'm in new york, and there are no french doors or pool fountains or even my parents around. love cant last forever graceful swans of never topple to the earth but you, can make it last forever you
my one amusement right now is watching the people of the neighborhood walk under my window past my house and i wonder if any of them know who billy corgan is....it's loudly playing to the street so everyone can share in my melancholy
love cant last forever love cant last forever love cant last forever |
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| MAKE IT HOT |
[Jul. 6th, 2004|02:44 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mirah- make it hot | ] |
its a fucking oven in my room. the rest of the house is cold, but my room is at least, and im not kidding, 15 to 25 degrees hotter. why?!?!
here's something to take up the time that i should be sleeping.
Donated blood? no, im anti needle
Been on a diet? the only thing that works is eating well and excercising
Talked your way out of a speeding ticket? no, actually, i just accept them and go on my way. which is why i owe the state of texas a lot of money. and the state of new york
Eaten fried pickles? ive avoided them thus far
Lied to your dh? dh? what is that?
Failed a class? not since high school
Been to Europe? yes, and i love it
Read a book in one night? all the time
Tee-Pee'd a house? sort of. i lost interest and wandered off to talk to someone
Opened someone else's mail? not without permission
Mowed the lawn? never, actually. isnt that odd?
Danced in a recital? never danced, always sang
Overflowed the toilet? yes, most recently when i was drunk and i have no idea why. i think i tried to flush a towel or something. i have no idea. this is sounding ridiculous...next question
Eaten a whole pizza? mikey and i housed one a month ago
Played hooky? never in high school, but in college
Gotten straight A's? never. but ive come quite close
Swam with dolphins? no
Had braces? ah yes. disaster
Gone on a blind date? no, i dont think so
Been locked out of your home? no, we've always had a key hidden somewhere
Marched in a parade? ha, no, but the thought of it makes me laugh
Been stuck in an elevator? no, thank god
Broken a bone? no, again, thank god
Been to a circus? i cant remember
Gone white-water rafting? no, but adrienne has, and her stories are interesting
Fainted? never.
Wished you had chosen a different career? i havent chosen one
Been on a hayride? yes...I'm from Texas
Avoided doing something because of a superstition? sort of
Have you ever been on the radio? every week 91.1 fm
Danced under the stars? yes
Hitchhiked? no, thats not safe nowadays
Bought a CD just for 1 song? yes
Performed a solo? many times singing
Learned how to play chess? yeah, i love playing chess
Lost your luggage on a trip? thankfully no
Demanded a raise? hmm...in an offhand way
Hit an animal on accident while driving? that makes me think of the birds that flew into dana's grill....hilarious. feathers everywhere
Stayed at a bed and breakfast? yes! theyre lovely
Been thrown a surprise party? god maybe with kim, i cant remember
Saved someone's life? in theory ;)
Been in a play? ahhh cindy west side story!~ i have to say yes cause of fucking...what was it....sound of music! oh god, the horror.
Had a hole in one? yes at mini golf
Climbed a mountain? a few minor ones
Run out of gas while driving? jesus yes, in syracuse to see cindy. and in the most ghetto part, and a big black man pushed my car to the side of the road
Served on a jury? never
Been to New York City? yes, and i fell asleep on a sidewalk in the village. good times. |
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| totally stolen from charles |
[May. 21st, 2004|08:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  infuriated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | champagne from a paper cup- death cab | ] |
Choose a band or artist and answer only in the titles of songs written by them: Mirah
Describe yourself: Engine Heart
How do some people feel about you: Make It Hot
How do you feel about yourself: Pretty Eyes
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: We're Both so Sorry
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: Where's My Heart
Describe where you are: Where We're From
Describe where you want to be: In a Sailboat
Describe what you want to be: Words Cannot Describe
Describe how you live: Water and Sleep
Describe how you love: La Familia
Share a few words of wisdom: Nobody Has To Stay
that was interesting. tough, yet interesting. i suggest you all do it also. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 15th, 2004|11:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the fitness- chauffer | ] |
You're an Etch-a-Sketch!! You're the creative,
artsy type who doesn't need to actually utilize
a single muscle group in order to have fun.
Doesn't matter though, you're still cool.
What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
brought to you by Quizilla |
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| so much livejournalling |
[May. 10th, 2004|10:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mirah- mt st helens | ] |
ahh 2 posts in one day this is getting absurd. but i had to add i'm in love with this one too:
I adopted a cute lil' tempura fetus
from Fetusmart! mm..yummy.
it makes me think of kimmy (and for those who dont know, kim is my twin sister who is my lj picture. although she kind of doesnt look like that anymore. it's weird, she never looks the same for long and never looks the same in pictures. creepy.)
ooh death cab's cover of all is full of love! im putting on a good dance-esque mix so i can fucking just write this paper. procrastination is so passe. i'll just make myself stay up late or something. too bad i dont care at all...this has been a hellish semester, i hated my classes and this is the last i have to deal with them and the grades dont matter to me too much. i already ripped her a new asshole on her evaluation, and that's all i was waiting for. i am at peace. well not quite, im feeling sick-full after eating like 3 dinners (eating is a form of procrastination that is certainly never passe, quoth the fattie). sick-full and happy-full. geez, that was an old inside joke...oooh. im starting to feel sick from eating all of that. and now i smell like cigarettes from james and katie giving themselves cancer. i hate cigarettes, they always make me feel sick. smoking is passe. too bad everyone in the world other than me smokes. i'll come to your funerals loveys. and then i'll write letters to the tobacco companies and star in the Truth ads that are semi annoying yet quite clever. urg. must...write...paper....almost...a...senior..in..college. oh adn ps, this summer shall be excellent, quoth the inhabitants of 17 west harrison, #1. and no skinny stupid girls who live above us shall sun themselves on our deck! |
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| adorable fetus |
[May. 10th, 2004|08:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  predatory | ] |
| [ | music |
| | radio dept- i dont need love, ive got my band | ] |
I adopted a cute lil' dragon fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
isnt it lovely? it was my favorite one to choose from. too bad they didnt have a zombie fetus, cause everyone knows zombies are the new robot which was the new pirate which was the new ninja.
now i have to write a 6-8 page paper due tomorrow! and then another paper (8-12 pages) due wednesday when i give a presentation on the paper! must! write! now!
but im not really stressed, cause it'll get done.
panara date avec katie, et travillier apres le diner. jesus, is that even right? |
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| im cold so im like a ground beef popsicle |
[May. 7th, 2004|11:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sore | ] |
| [ | music |
| | im watching the tenacious D video for tribute and laughing | ] |
i keep sounding to people like im happy but im not. a lot of those who ive talked to recently can tell, as i was just chatting casually with my twin online adn she out of nowhere said i seemed sad. well i am. i keep thinkign abotu court and its terrible. that and so many other things. but first,
court. usually people who get all sad abotu someone they dont really know dying annoys the fuck out of me, but i knew court. and he was cool as shit, and he lived 2 streets away from me, adn jessica loved him so much. and she listened to dplan's "the city" for him, and i know how that feels, and i can relate. ive listened to it for people too. and the fact that he died just fucks me up and i dont really have an explaination. do you need an explaination when people die and it makes you sad? not really, no. and its not going to go away for a while. and jessica is so upset, and i cant help my baby. and i love her so much and want to take the pain away from her like she's done for me. and i cant. and it kills me. everyone i love who is even more broken up about this than i am, who knew court much better, it just kills me. i love my darlings, my best friends, and they are my world. it makes me sigh a big, resigned sigh and just miss them like i do all the time. http://talon12.resnet.tamu.edu/default.asp
.so other than that...i guess im at a transition period or something. ive been acting funny, and things have been subtly shifting and not so subtly movingn around. and at this moment, i am annoyed how i so often put "ign" instead of "ing" with my skittery typing. but luckily, tori's "siren" came on and im ok. good tune.
i have been forcefully and subconsciously running my hands through my bangs and everytime i do that i can smell the hamburgers that are on me from when i manned the grill at the wspn bbq for 2 hours today. i was the grill master, indeed, since darling station manager ezra cant deal with meat. heh. makes me smile, lovely little fragile dearheart. (he gave me a watermelon kiss on the cheek so when we were making smores and i got melted marshmallow all over my face like an autistic 5 year old i ran up to him with the marshmallow face and he fell off the bench he was sitting on, laughing. good good good times). anyway, the wind was so strong that the smoke from the grill kept getting into my eyes and the entire 2 hours it looked like i had gotten beaten up or really stoned, but alas, i was simply flipping burgers and hot dogs and sausages and smart dogs and boca burgers for the hungry skidmore kids that made it down to our bbq. and hell, im not even on the board next year, but im a good 'un and did my thing. and the dj was cool (and an old friend of mine that i hadnt seen in a while) so that was good times also.
jesus im really in the mood for the notwist's "consequence". no elliott smith or i may go over the edge.
jesus, no, i want to listen to transatlanticism. christ, that's so untrue. those lyrics are bullshit, not applicable to my life.
just so you know.
so it just occured to me that i am on a number of people's lj friends lists so this post may be wide read, but im really just writing it to myself. you should be ok with that, faceless lj reader, since its helping me a ton. im digging writin this post and if it doesnt make sense to you, my apologies.
jesus, its 11 30 and i still havent washed this burger smell away. how remiss of me. im supposed to go to a party but im not sure if my friends im going with are still going, blahblah, its whatev. im perfectly happy to stay here, get so fresh and so clean, adn watch the harry potter dvd i borrowed from my fantastic freshman suitemates yesterday that i have yet to enjoy. j'adore harry potter. c'est tres adorable. i almost said ennyeaux...fuck. forgot how to spell "annoying" en francais. damn. its been too long.
on another frantic or simply just frowny note, i cant get ahold of haley and that terrifies me. shes not doign well at all and her father is going insane and he has her car and guns and im just worried sick, as worried sick as can be. i dont know what to do- what can i do for anyone in texas when im here in new york? le sigh.
its cool. i know what i can do, be supportive, et al.
"im far away and im feeling alone ive got one week behind me just 6 more to go if i could see you id take off your clothes and we sit in the garden and watch the weeds grow" ah mirah. i do like you, i do.
ok seriously, this beef smell is just disgusting. like half smile, laughing out loud "i actually smell like hamburger!". speaking of, im pretty hungry. :) food. it makes me smile. maybe if i eat more (ive hardly eaten today; i got one half burger out of the $200 worth of meat i cooked) i'll feel better. :) and with that, i leave you smiling. |
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| oh surveys, we're still friends |
[May. 6th, 2004|05:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the walkmen- thinking of a dream i had | ] |
In the last 24 hours have you...
1. cried?: no, i dont really cry much ever
2. bought something?: pepperidge farms brussels cookies and a dr pepper
3. gotten sick?: i have a sore throat and a cough
4. sang?: yes, some tori, like always
5. eaten?: dr pepper and cookies
6. been kissed?: i kissed people goodbye on the cheek
7. felt stupid?: yeah after saturday night, but all is well now
8. wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't?: i always tell people i love them if i do
9. met someone new?: dont think so, no
10. moved on?: definitely
11. talk to an ex?: n/a
12. missed an ex?: n/a
13. talked to someone you have a crush on?: sort of
14. had a serious talk?: yeah, i do very often
15. missed someone?: yes
16. hugged someone?: Yes.
17. fought with your parents?: no, not at all
18. dreamed about someone you can't be with?: i think all my very recent dreams have been about monsters and things like that
social life:
5. hobbies: reading, singing, hanging out, eating,
6. pager: pagers are for drug dealers and surgeons
7. are you center of attention or the wallflower?: often the center of attention
8. what type automobile do you drive? 1998 red pathfinder
9. what type automobile do you wish you drove? i would mind having mikk's vespa
10. would you rather be with friends or on a date?: friends and the date
11. where is the best hangout?: uncommon is popular here, as is the case patio.
12. do you have a job?: not yet, but i will
14. do you like being around people?: always
WHO:
1. have you known the longest?: victoria hurley and adrienne rumsey
2. do you argue the most with?: eh, i dont like arguing
3. do you always get along with?: leila
6. has been there through all the hard times?: all of my lovlies have been there for me, especially haley, jessica, and ash
7. has the coolest parents?: i do!
8. has the coolest siblings?: ashley does NOt win this one due to the amount of ADD and ADHD in her family, but i dont win either, so i'd have to go with jessica, who has the best and most awesome little brother ever. james, this one's for you
9. is the most blunt?: ashley
10. is the smartest?: i am! (fafa)
personal:
1. who is your role model? honestly, i dont know
2. what are some of your pet peeves?: people that dont shower ever, people that try to argue points that they clearly have no experience or knowledge of, people not giving me alone time, people arguing with me for the sake of arguing, people who try to tell me im wrong when its my opinion and it doesnt matter, anyone who treats me like an idiot when i havent had any chance to prove that true (yet;)
3. have you ever liked someone you had no chance with? everyone can have chances with everyone else, haevnt you ever read cinderella?
4. have you ever cried over the opposite sex? sure
5. do you have a "type" of person you always go after? sort of
6. have you ever lied to your best friend(s)?: not really
7. ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you? yes, and ive gotten it before
8. would you rather dump someone or get dumped? Depends on the situation.
10. do you want someone you don't have right now? not really no
11. ever liked your best guy/girl friend? um...yeah i suppose
12. do you want to get married? perhaps
13. do you want kids? We'll see.
14. do you believe in psychics? no, since the psychic i went to told me weird things like i'd have 6 kids...hell no
15. do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time? oh god, i dont know.
16. what is your favorite part of your physical appearance? my awesome tattoo
17. what is your favorite part of your emotional being? strength and compassion
18. are you happy with you? for the most part, yes
19. are you happy with your life? its getting there, but again, mostly yes
20. if you could change something in your life right now, what would it be? id have these 3 papers and presentation due next week done already |
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| you slay me every night |
[Apr. 27th, 2004|12:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stars- what the snowman learned about love | ] |
hey lj, et. al. its late and i'm waiting for my favorite drug to kick in and send sleep to me. and its working already, so i'd better make this quick before it becomes unitelligable (is anyone else worried that i take this drug a little too often? luckily i have people to talk to about this sort of thing, and hopefully i can work it out so i dont have to take anything at all. wouldnt that be nice)
so im in a not stellar mood, but listening to travis morrison's "song for the orca" is cheering me up a tad (despite depressing environmental subject matter). ive been listening to a lot of elliott lately. alameda, oh that song. i was able to quote the lyrics that were written for someone to that someone recently so the song doesnt bother me so much anymore. he knows it's for him. and its a great fucking song; those guitar chords and angeles are quintissential elliott songs for me.
anyway. here's a picture of me right after q and not u put on a really fucking good show
http://www.skidmore.edu/~e_flath/qnotu/qnotu-Pages/Image17.html
its bizarre, because sweet evan who took the picture photoshopped my eyes to be straight. i think it looks weird and its very amusing, thanks evan. as one who is formerly crosseyed yourself, its nice to show me what it would look like after surgery. but i still am anti, thanks anyway. the scarf i have is cool, it says "the pride of brooklyn:THE BOGGS: follow follow down below" i think having scarves for your band is beyond excellent. and i have been wearing my scarf ever since (esp.since its supposed to snow tomorrow, and be 70 on thursday. fickle new york weather)
(i am evan and this is my heart. i am chris and this is my heart. i am amy, and this is my heart. i am tork, and this is my heart)
semester's almost over. charles, are you coming to nyc? let me know. speaking of nyc, howre you doing mikk? your aggie girl doesnt seem to be very ok...everythign all right? i always love reading about her music choices. drop me an email kiddo
ahhhh. the sweet strains of fogginess. sleep is not far away. goodnight |
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| i stole this from charles |
[Apr. 11th, 2004|03:00 am] |
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| | single frame ashtray- been to a party at this house | ] |
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"We'll call them movements in this prologue, but some groups view themselves more as efforts to improve human condition through societal, political, and personal change." -from GenderSpeak, the third edition
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
50 cd-rs, memorex
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
family guy
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
3:10ish in the morning
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
3:03 am
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the clock ticking and random live tori mp3s playing ("father lucifer")
7: When were you last outside? What were you doing?
around 1 am. katie and i were getting dinner at dennys
8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?
xanga sites and myspace
9: what are you wearing?
khaki velour pants, turquoise tank top, light blue santa socks, and a dark grey fleece
10: Did you dream last night? What about?
peircing my ears and talking to animals and living in new york city...i dont know, they were cold medicine induced dreams
11: When did you last laugh?
with katie, when we were driving around in the sun and i put in her christmas cd. listening to christmas music in april is HILARIOUS
12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?
a map of texas, shadow boxes, picture frames, a clock, a mirror, a poster of robert smith circa boys dont cry, purses and coats and scarves on hooks, drum heads, a calander, a bulliten board that used to hang in my kitchen in austin, and a lot of little posters of 238, kvrx, ktru, wspn, and lemonenemy
13: Seen anything weird lately?
there were tons of campus safety cars and saratoga police cars outside kimball tonight, and katie and i were just going to walk up there and ask what was going on. but we didnt, and we dont really care
14: What do you think of this quiz?
i get such pleasure over talking about myself sometimes. no really.
15: What is the last film you saw?
Outside Providence
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
i'd give money to my parents and sisters first thing, so i guess i would be buying their love? fafa
17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
i pray every night before bed. no one believes me, but i do
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
i'd give people something to make them happy every day (like charles)
19: Do you like to dance?
very much
20: George Bush- is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?:
the whole government is off. what ever happened to mr smith goes to washington? i dont trust anyone
21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
jane
21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
tristan
22: Would you ever consider living abroad?
yes, in spain. its gorgeous there, and the mentality is so different. plus i'd get to take siestas all the time. yay |
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| talking shit about a pretty sunset (and champagne from a paper cup) |
[Apr. 5th, 2004|02:06 am] |
so the Figgs show went well. i flyered like the good off campus promotions director that i am, went out and bought all the stuff on their ryder (beer, water, towels, a fruit medley, chips, salsa, and whiskey) and told them bucky from houston says hi. i'm proud of myself and wspn, even though nicki forgot to pick up the check from the office to pay the band (i still dont know how we paid them) and soundcheck was rough (they played a nice kate bush cover, however) and ezra was about to implode or explode, i'm not sure. it all worked out. the place was packed. leila's birthday party was a success, my outfit was perfection, and the dance party mix i made was a little beyond incredible. no really, like insanely incredible. permit me to be a snob and post a few of the selections:
daft punk (indo silver club), junior senior (go junior, go senior), kelis (milkshake), modest mouse (dance hall), measels, mumps, rubella (fountain of youth), tiffany (i think we're alone now-- and i personally sang and shook my milkshake for leila on this one) and britney spears "toxic".
although, brendon and alex upstaged me a tad and wrote and recorded an album for leila, which was hilarious. hilarious. katie and i were the only ones dancing most of the time but thats how it goes. DAs was fun, staying almost sober was a good idea since i promised to take care of leilers and she needed it. the figgs came and played pool with us, i sat down and had an hour long conversation with my freshman suitemate erica, and brendon accidentally stepped on and broke my big toe and oh god it hurt. i'm okay now, however. its what i get for wearing flip flops. incidentally, its snowing today. ugh. get your shit together, nature.
ok. time for bed. havent brought out the ambien in a while but tonights the night and i'm starting to feel like i'm in a cave, which i've learned is a sign that i'm fucked up. so goodnight.
and ash, good luck on your stuff.
and mikk, my email address is k_smyth@skidmore.edu and ash's is ashpauley@yahoo.com
and the final answer is: no, i'm not okay. not at all. |
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| god this is a long post. but surveys are fun |
[Feb. 20th, 2004|03:46 pm] |
Name: Karen
Do you like it?: indeed
Nicknames: seedling, kk, smythling, princess, karenwog, karebear, bear, K, k2
Screen names: kesmyth and a secret one
Age: 21
Birthday: november 1. 1982
Sign: scorpio
Location: saratoga springs, ny. specifically, at work in the Dean of Studies
School: SKidmore College, where it's cool to not care
Status: um...i'm alive? what are you talking about?
Crush: crushes hurt
Virgin?: ahahahaha
Natural hair color: brown
Current hair color: pink and brown
Eye color: goldish brown
Height: five four
Birthplace: san francisco
Shoe size: 7
[ family ]
Parents: jack and linn
Siblings: kim (maclean) and khrysti
Live with: myself, in a dorm
Favorite relative: eh, WB, when shes not being mean or forgetting about me
[ favorites ]
Number: 12
Color: pink and green
Day: thursday
Month: october
Song: i'll just do my theme song: A Forest, by the Cure
Movie: um...i can watch center stage forever
Food: american or chinese
Band: dplan, the cure
Season: fall
Sport: basket weaving
Class: not any that i'm in right now
Teacher: pfitzer, my wonderful advisor
Drink: pom and vodka
Veggie: every time i bite into a vegetable, i hear it scream
TV Show: TV IS THE DEVIL
Radio Station: i'd say 91.1 wspn, but i cant. so rice radio, 91.7
Store: delias, banana republic.
Word: wtf
Animal: flamingos? theyre pink
Flower: peonies
State: TEXAS
[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: not exactly
Do you have a crush?: no
How long have you liked him/her?: ummm...
If you're not single... give details...: oh ill give you details.
How long was your longest relationship?: everything is so vague...4 years?
[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: no regrets
Last thing you heard: ashley on the cell
Last thing you saw: this page
Last thing you said: "ok, call me later"
Who is the last person you saw?: this gross person who works here, cynthia
Who is the last person you kissed?: i kiss people goodbye on the cheek all the time
Who is the last person you hugged?: man, havent had a hug in a while
Who is the last person you fought with?: mikey, i yelled at him
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: pollywoggers
What is the last TV show you saw?: real world with katie on Tuesday
What is the last song you heard?: "i dont know what i can save you from" Kings of Convenience remixed by Royksopp
[ the present ]
What are you wearing?: green simple sneakers, goldfish socks, light colored jeans, navy polo shirt
What are you doing?: nothing, i have to sit here for another half hour while everyone is gone and do NOTHING. which sucks, since i have so much i could be doing other than sitting here
Who are you talking to?: no one, i put my phone on silent and an away message up
What song are you listening to?: no music here
Where are you?: work
Are you online?: yes
How are you feeling?: tired and crampy. and not so great
Are you in a chatroom?: fuck no
[ future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: saturday
What are you going to do after this?: go back to my room, take a shower, take my fucked up computer somewhere in town so my harddrive wont get erased, eat dinner with dana, and hopefully watch tv with katie
Who are you going to talk to?: dana, katie if she finds her cell phone, ashwog, glen if i have time to call him back, kim if she calls me back ever, the people at the computer place
Where are you going to go?: all over the place
How old will you be when you graduate?: um...22
What do you wanna be?: awesome
What is one of your dreams?: to enjoy everything
Where will you be in 25 years?: somewhere awesome, im sure
[ have you ever ]
Drank?: yes, but im not an alcoholic, contrary to popular bullshit belief. i'm 21 and drink sometimes once a week, what is wrong with this?!?!
Smoked?: not anymore
Stolen?: god, lets not talk about it
Wanted to die?: yes
Hit someone?: thats a great idea
[ other ]
Do you write in cursive or print?: cursivey girly print
Are you a lefty or a righty?: righthanded
What is your sexual preference?: i like boys. well boys who are glen, i guess. fafa
What piercings do you have?: just ears
Any tattoos?: no thanks. but its tempting
Do you drive?: often
Do you have glasses or braces?: glasses, and i just realized i wear them everyday
[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: never
How many coats and jackets do you own?: about 6 or 7
Favorite pants/skirt color?: all different colors
most expensive item of clothing?: some of my dresses, probably
Most treasured?: i love my entire closet
What kind of shoes do you wear?: i have to wear sneakers up here all the time. simples, sauconys, aesics
Describe your style in one word: hot when i'm going out, simple everyday. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 31st, 2003|08:20 pm] |
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| | the cure, ad infinitum | ] |
hooray for halloween. i guess kids are trick or treating now? or have been for hours, it's already dark...this is my first time for halloween not in my house in houston or a dorm, so i may get a knock or two...wild.
anyway. i lost my voice today (i didnt lose it exactly, it just went away) so working this morning was a challenge. people were nice about it and i was doing okay until around 1 pm when i realized i also felt like shit. boo for that. it was also super busy at the Harv today so even though i couldnt talk i had to so now i have no voice at all.
none. none voice.
i got some randomness to complete my costume as the Nothing from the neverending story. it should work out well, it's an abstract concept anyway so there's no pressure. although i do feel awful. where's my tea?
my mom left a cute message on the phone and said "i heard you have no voice, i wish you were here so i could take care of you and have two sicky birthday girls". even though ive spent the past week being taken care of by mom i wish i could go to houston and take her up on that. oh mom, youre my favorite. although she wouldn;t have 2 sicky poos because kim will go out anyway, walking pneumonia be damned.
so. why do i always want to be where i'm not? what's with this wishful thinking? and rhetorical questions?
im going to try to feel better. try. try try try. its my 21st birthday tomorrow :) sometimes i'm excited and sometimes i don't care. we'll see. its just another day. but from now on i never have to worry about getting in anywhere or having Xs on my hands at shows.
neat. |
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[Oct. 21st, 2003|09:10 pm] |
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i love charles totally in the butt |
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